Apr. 23rd, 2012 07:00 pm
whatawaytoburn: ([Sanctuary] Sleep)
I can't get my head around anything. I need to do readings, I need to write, I need to clean and I would like to read. I just can't get my brain to focus on anything.

I just want to sleep, honestly. Curl up in a ball, sleep and not wake up for a very long time. I'm not even depressed, I'm just worn down. Mrah.

I am going to look into food and possibly caffeine. Caffei8ne will maybe will give me brain. We will see.
whatawaytoburn: ([Words] Won't sleep for days)
Wow, occasionally we are really dense.

W9illiam and I are talking about how sleep should happen soon, as stuff needs to get done tomorrow and we both know that I don't sleep well and it's a crapshoot if he can sleep well or not.

And then Bo wanders by.

Bo, who is an angel who specializes in beds/sleep/dreams/you get the gist.

She's been around for years

Yeah, we both just kind of facepalmed so, so hard.
whatawaytoburn: ([Words] Won't sleep for days)
Things I need to do this weekend:
- Do RP tags
- Finish the tarot/Do a three card draw day.
- Go through edits.
- Write the Cabin Pressure Exchange fic.
- Look through zombie fest prompts.
- Clean my room.
- Start planning for people's gifts.
- Determine what I am doing about Rory.
- Work on Bargains
- Start writing for 100 Things

Which is not bad considering the list I started out with on Monday. I wish I had gotten more done but well, I always wish I had gotten more done. Plus I added two things on there that hadn't been on the previous list, so you know.

I should look into caffeine or a nap. I've been up for nearly 12 hours after only getting about five hours of real sleep, so caffeine and/or naps ought to happen, though I had two caffeine pills already today, so maybe it should be sleep.

I just...want to stay up and plot for Bargains. And possi8bly start writing for prompts. And listen to music. And not have to bloody sleep.
whatawaytoburn: ([Words] Won't sleep for days)
Holy hand grenades, whatever was in the drugs my mother gave me last night knocked me out. I slept for fifteen hours with a few moments of waking up but no. Sleep. Aaaaall the sleep.

Unfortunately, I feel really clouded and unable to focus because of the drugs but we are going to try only giving me half a pill tonight and see where that gets me.
whatawaytoburn: ([Words] Won't sleep for days)
I do not have the brain for a words post today. Know that I got about 2,100 words on NaNo and about 100 on other things. I will do the math tomorrow. Now it is time for sleep.
whatawaytoburn: ([Sanctuary Nikola is doing science!NaNO)
Guys, I do not know how to take a damn break *facepalms*

Instead of going to sleep like I should, since y'know, I am probably getting the plague. I have taken a break from writing NaNo/Ni90 and am now writing that Nikola Tesla/Henry Jekyll I wanted to start writing.

Because I fail as a cat.

Yeah, I don't' even know, guys. I don't even know.

When my head explodes and I start bleeding words, we all know why.

8will have to go adjust the wordcount totals for today when I am done.
whatawaytoburn: ([DW] Amy smiles)
Somehow it got to be Thursday and I'm not sure how that happened. I lost a day this week. I'm not even sure which day it was but I definitely lost one. I blame my current, rather questionable, sleep schedule.

That's okay though. I am that much closer to Saturday.

And becuase people keep bring up 3WFDW and I wouldn't actually mind doing something for it, have a meme.

What kind of topics/entries would you like to see me posting about? Any particular questions you've always wanted to ask me but have resisted because the answer would be a huge essay? Ever want to wind me up and watch me go on a particular topic? Anything you've heard me say "I should write that entry about $foo I've been meaning to write" and have been patiently waiting for?
whatawaytoburn: ([Writing] Epilogue)
You know, I have this really whacked out sleep schedule. Sleep a few hours at night, be up for about half the day, get more sleep.. Do it again.

I think this may lead to slightly questionable decision making.

This morning I decided to join [livejournal.com profile] apokalyptisch. The basic premise is to write 200 fics before the end of the year. Yeah, I don't even know what i was thinking.

'The request form is here. Part of the point of the comm is to take requests and fill them, so yes. Please feel free to drop by and prompt me at any time. Ill probably bring this around once a month or so to remind you it exists. I am also going to probably alter the layout (I just C/Ped it from the comm, only adding in my fandoms) but for now it works.

We'll see how much of it I actually manage to get through.

I think I would not be wtfing quite so badly fi I didn't know for damn sure I was going to be working on other things, including NaNo and the Big Bang while I do this.

I'm going to be in the corner nesting in all the words now. XD
whatawaytoburn: ([Words] Anything get done)
No writing got done because my body basically decided that it has had enough of being functional and proceeded to catch the deathplague again.

This would be fine if I could have just slept through the day but my brain was just awake enough to keep my body from sleeping the while time, so I pretty much wound up curling up in bed and listening to things all day while trying to sum up enough brain to write.

I got one tag done.

Hopefully tomorrow will go better than today. I have a doctor's appointment in the morning and I am going to try to go to bed in a few minutes to see if the combination of sleep meds, sick meds and not moving for several hours will leave me feeling better.

I do not know if it will work but I will cross my fingers.
whatawaytoburn: ([Cats] Hugs)
Words: 2571
Words for the week: 4999 (I can't decide if this irritates me or amuses me)
What's been written: Two cast lists and a section of the Spice novel.
Reason for stopping: My brain is just not working tonight. I might try again later but I really don't see anything happening until tomorrow.

Noise quality: Some show my mother is watching and music on random.
Time I woke up: 1:30 PM. I went to sleep at about 8PM the previous day. Yeah, that is definitely oversleep.
Amount of Caffeine had: Three cups of coffee and I'll be getting my fourth when I'm done writing this entry.
Procrastination method of the day: S1 of Buffy.
Things that should be getting done instead of writing: Making a list of foods I need for various recipes.

I slept like all hell last night but I didn't sleep at all the previous night so I guess it balances out. I'm kind of annoyed because the serious oversleep has kind of left me without brain to do much. I'm trying to get it but its failing pretty miserably.

Group went well yesterday,I met a woman who's really sweet, likes cats and clove cigarettes and is generally awesome. She kind of made my Monday. What didn't make my Monday was the fact that I was late coming home and wound up missing my psych appointment. I hate talking to people ont he phone after I've fucked up but luckily my aunt did most of the talking and I just had to decide what day I would do the appointment.

Tomorrow is the psychiatrist, group and, if I'm still in the mood after all the running around, Barnes And Noble. We're also going to try and straighten out the bedroom some but I don't know how well that's going to go. I might just stay up all night getting it straightened but I'm trying to tell myself that's not the best idea.

My bed is exactly where it used to be which...does not entirely sit well with me. I need to move other things around in that room because if I leave it the way it is (a big mess with my bed being the only neat thing) it's going to make me have a breakdown.

My nails are black and orange though, this cheers me up a little bit.
whatawaytoburn: ([Writing] Builod you in words)
I am trying to get the brain to write and it is not working. I find this terribly irritating since I know what I want to work on right now (the next section of the Spice novel) but I can't shake the fogginess from my head.

All I really want to do is go back to bed but I tried that already and it did not work. I've tried coffee and the caffeine has let me down. I think I might go take a shower in a few minutes and see if that helps any.

So, in the spirit of trying to get my brain to work, here's a meme.

1) Go to [community profile] timeisastory and look at the cast lists.
2) Either ask me a question or leave me a prompt (or more if you're a crazy person like Alex).
3) Profit.

I will take any sort of prompts and I'm seriously considering whipping out iTunes and trying to write off the random songs that pop up until I can get my brain in order to do longer things.
whatawaytoburn: (Default)
I've failed at updating recently but I am going to try and get back into the swing of it. I really want to try and update once a day as a personal log of what's going on because I know my memory is fail and I'd really like to have something to look back on.

Sol yes, updating every day should happen.

We're going out to buy knitting needles later. Sofu plans on teaching me how to do that tonight. I have no complaints since, at the moment, I can't really do anything else with beading. My aunt is doing her best when it comes to getting materials together but there's so much stuff she needs to clear out of the house that she's just finding hte stuff in bits and pieces.

I've gone online though and gathered up tutorials so I'm pleased about that. Hopefully I'll get the actual supplies in the next few weeks and I can start working on that properly.

Group has been kind of stressful simply because my mental state has not been the greatest. I went yesterday and couldn't manage to stay the entire time because my anxiety kicked in. That...was not thrilling. I wound up walking around the place just waiting to go home and then I didn't mange to get back until about an hour afterward. It was just not the best day.

Today I had to get up and go to a psychologist. I don't mind him, he seems like he'll be vaguely useful and I go back in two weeks. I also see my psychiatrist this next Tuesday and that's not a terrible thing. The meds are doing okay, I'm just sleeping a lot. I went to bed before twelve last night, slept until about seven this morning, came home at ten and then slept until two and I could still take a nap. I know that I need to wait for my body to adjust to the me ds, it's just irritating because my motivation to do things gets switched over to wanting to do nothing but sleep.

And that was a lot of rambling. Sorry. I am going to get some coffee, hop in the shower and then try and tackle my tags before I need to take my drugs for the night. *crosses fingers and hopes for good brain function*

Writing meme day five, six and seven )
whatawaytoburn: (Misc: Defaulty cats are default)
Today was spent sleeping and tagging. I meant to do other things, go to my aunt's place for example, but I didn't wake up properly until 4 in the afternoon and then I just did not feel like leaving.

I needed the sleep though, what with the night before and the sheer fail that came with sleep.

I am going to go back to doing tags in a second and then maybe try and find a place to download movies. I've been in a movie mood lately and I can go curl up with coffee and watch some on the nice big screen I have.

Writing meme: day 3 )
whatawaytoburn: (DW: HappyDonna!)
So, eight in the morning sees me awake, exhausted and waiting for my mother to pick me up. The urge to sleep is a little overwhelming but the prospect of A) money and B) groceries is going to keep me awake, at least until I can get caffeine.

I haven't had much tagbrain lately but I've actually managed to write two fics this week, each longer than I expected. It's actually really nice, since my writingbrain has been utter fail lately.

Okay, going to try and tag into a post, then packing everything up and hopefully heading out.
whatawaytoburn: (Default)
*waves a flag that insists she's alive*

You're not getting much more from me than that at the moment but I thought the fact needed to be stated.

*is going to go back to drinking coffee and possibly passing out now*
whatawaytoburn: (Spices: Carway is hugging OSCAR FUCKING)
This weekend? Several degrees of win?

The aftermath of this weekend (sleeping for fifteen hours, waking up from that little nap and being sore as hell)? Not so much.

I have Sports Night though plus the fact that today is the last day of class and I will probably come home and either sleep or watch more pleasing TV.

I ought to try and catch up on more internet stuff but that may not happen until tomorrow. We shall see.

And as the last thing, have a meme.

whatawaytoburn: (Default)
I've made it through the day!

Granted, I've made it through the day with a lot of sleep involved but I don't care.

This may also be because not only have I thought of some very good ideas that are not only interesting but may benefit me in the future but I wrote and that is ALWAYS a good thing.

Of course, right now I feel like I'm going to be violently ill but I'm going to go curl up in bed and hope that this feeling is going to go away by morning. If not I'm...Well, I'm not going to move until it does.
whatawaytoburn: (Default)
So, brain is only halfway here. This is slightly problematic since I wnt to be productive today but we'll see how I am after coffee.

Also? Its kind of nice to wake up and find both the cats and the dog sleeping in the room with me. It makes me smile.

Okay, food, coffee and then attempts to not go back to sleep.
whatawaytoburn: (Default)
Why in hell am I awake?

Oh yeah, because I sleep too much during the day and then manage to get thoroughly distracted during the night.

Well, here's to hoping no one expects me to be particularly functional during the day. If so, one of us is screwed, I'm just not sure who quite yet.

And unrelated to anything else, I should probably listen to something that's not Jekyll and Hyde. 'Probably', of course, does not translate to 'will'. I am pretty okay wit this though.
whatawaytoburn: (Default)
So, despite all my best efforts, I cannot seem to manage to get warm or awake. I don't think I would really even mind if it weren't for the fact that I can't bring the Master to bed with me.

What I would do is try and be productive. I have a few different things that ought to at least start getting poked at today and just have...not. However, instead I am considering getting up, getting a brownie and curling up under the covers again.

Why Sunday? Why have you eaten up my ability to function? I blame you. And the Time Lords but for once, I really don't see this being their fault. Still, I blame them because I can.

Right brownies and then venturing into the wide world of trying to get something done. Here's to hoping at least half of that gets accomplished.


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